I counted this morning…this will be my 88th Morning Musing. That’s a lot of writing for someone who does not consider herself a writer…for someone who has jokingly referred to herself as a highly-educated illiterate for years…for someone who really doesn’t like to write and who doesn’t read to learn. As a matter of fact, I probably wouldn’t read my own writing (sorry Jackie…I know you said not to say that but I am anyway)…I prefer bullet points and then learning by touching. Nothing makes my eyes glaze over like a large block of text. So why? Why am I writing each of these musings? Sometimes it’s for me…sometimes I’m working through something…wrestling…and I’m trying to make sense of it. But most of the time, it’s not for me. Most of the time, I am asking God to put something on my heart if it will help someone I know…asking to be a tool in his hand…asking for a way to show him more and connect to those he loves more…and even though I am not a writer, I am finding that I feel fulfilled, challenged, and satisfied when I write.
Why am I telling you this? Glad you asked! I think that God can use each of us to make change on this Earth. Now bear with me, I’m not telling you to sell everything you have, uproot your family, and go into foreign mission work full time…unless, of course, you are hearing that from God. What I am saying is that our weaknesses combined with his strengths and the passions that he has instilled in us are an amazing combination. I mean, take me: I literally have brain damage from the poisoning a few years back, I am deathly afraid of public speaking/performing, I am the world’s slowest reader, writing was always my weakest area in school, and the thought that you all could be judging me harshly sends me into hives…and I am writing most mornings from thoughts entering this damaged brain and putting everything I think and feel out in public to be judged by everyone I’ve ever met…and some people I’ve never met. When I say it like that, I terrify myself! But yet, I am doing it.
See, I think we all are gifted with certain talents and abilities. Obviously, we should utilize those gifts in life. But, there is a lot to be gained through our weaknesses. Think of it like this: when an olympic gymnast is able to do a back hand-spring…people aren’t shocked and they don’t tend to take notice. But if my grandma suddenly did a back hand-spring, people would put her on the news! She would probably end up on a talk show. She would have a bazillion hits on youtube. Why? Not because a hand-spring is news-worthy…because people are inspired when they see someone rise above their weaknesses. People see God when he fills in where we are deficient. (Think Moses.)
Now the challenge. I think God wants to utilize each of us…our strengths and our weaknesses…to touch the hearts of others…to inspire others…to point others to him…to show each other love…to bring life to this world. I think there is something that we each shy away from that maybe we should be embracing…not because it’s comfortable for us…but because it is uncomfortable…because it magnifies him when our weaknesses are spot-lighted and the world gets to see how he fills in the void. What is God calling to mind for you that you are dismissing? What are you refusing to hand to God with open hands? In what area do you doubt his strength?
I am praying for each of you today to have a quiet place to calm your objections and listen to what God would ask of you. I am praying for each of you to experience the joy of obedience in your areas of weakness. Much love friends!